The drugs begin to peak, a smile of joy arrives in me. But sedation changes to panic and nausea, and breath starts to shorten and heartbeats pound softer. You wont try to save me, you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate.
You taught my heart a sense I never knew I had. I cant forget the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth. How do you do it? You’re my heroine.
And even after you’re gone, your memory haunts me. You wont leave me alone. Chisel my heart of stone, I give in everytime.
I bet you laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself. I bet you believe that I’m better off with someonelse other than you.
Your face arrives again, all hope becomes surreal. But under your cover’s more torture than pleasure. And just past your lips, there’s more anger than laughter. Not now or forever will I ever change you. I know that to go on I’ll break you, my habit. I will save myself. ~silverstein~